I remember thinking that about some women, usually prefaced with, 'It's not fair!' I used to think that really slim women somehow managed to be so slim effortlessly and that they had the 'key' to some miracle something that meant they could eat whatever they wanted, all the time, and still remain so slim. I used to find it infuriating when I saw a really slim woman eating an icecream or a chocolate bar - how dare she! How dare she be so slim and still eat all those fattening things!!
And, to some extent, I still catch those thoughts from time to time - my Gremlin is good at hanging on to sticks with which to beat me whenever I let my guard down. It's all your fault (so says my Gremlin) that you're so fat, look at what you eat! Don't think you can get away with eating stuff like that, gloats my Gremlin, and think you can lose weight! If that Gillian McKeith woman put all the food you eat on a table, the nation would be sick and food sales would go into a downward spiral ... everyone would just be DISGUSTED because you are disgusting....
It's poisonous stuff and if I catch the Gremlin at it, I give him what for (what does that expression actually mean?!) and do my very best to rid my mind of those slimy, poisonous, UNTRUE slanders.
And, how do I know what those skinny women eat? I may have seen them eating icecream or a cream cake or a chocolate bar, but what if that was ALL THEY ATE ALL DAY?! I know from my own experience that if I want to eat icecream, cake and/or chocolate, other food has to go out the window - there simply isn't room for it all any more. At one time I would have eaten the icecream, cake and/or chocolate AND my meals and then more icecream, cake and/or chocolate because I was so disgusted with myself. And so it would go on, giving my Gremlin ample sources of sticks to beat me with.
So when Daughter Number 2 said that to me today, I was quite shocked to hear those words I'd so often thought to myself, applied to me ... Daughter Number 2 was being complimentary, rather than envious; she was noticing that I no longer restrict the foods I eat based on some diet or other. She was supporting me as I did my exercises by noticing that I have toned up and am looking pretty good considering my advanced years ;)
I went for an osteoporosis screening yesterday and to my great surprise and relief, I have the bone density of a much younger woman - which means that I'm in little to no danger of osteoporosis in the future - although I will get it checked again after the menopause.
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